Alex is actually a cis lesbian, blogger, poet, singer and Archer’s very own on the web publisher. Amelia is actually a trans non-binary bisexual person, journalist, dreamboat and theatremaker extraordinaire.

Right here, Alex produces about her individual sex trip with insights from Amelia, as well as discuss just how their particular identities intertwine generate a loving house filled with queer goodness.

As a baby queer, I came out gradually, adhering to scraps of heteronormativity and conditional recognition. We dipped my feet into the queer water – not even daring to manufacture surf.

I understand my self today becoming a lesbian, but my spouse isn’t a woman. Amusing how that really works, huh?

Within strange, great, relatively contrary area, I are more comfortable and self-assured than ever.  As a plus, I’m able to sense the impending TERF craze coming my personal method, which nourishes my personal queer, defiant spirit. Yum yum!

Image: Amelia (kept) and Alex (correct). Pic by Jessica Craig-Piper


was released as bisexual over a decade ago. As a constantly single, very shy and uncomfortable person, this probably failed to indicate a lot to anyone. Most of us knew that I wasn’t magically going to be a suave, sexy d8r boi (or a sk8r boi, despite my large youth crush on Avril Lavigne).

I realized that people’s primary takeaway of my sexuality was actually a feeling of relief that guys remained an option. We internalised simply how much importance ended up being positioned on this ‘heterosexual’ attraction, therefore I willed myself personally to feel it – and unsuccessful stupendously.

I did not have many honestly queer pals at the moment, nevertheless people Used to do have had been all bisexual. I was weighed down by my personal queer appeal – when you look at the best and worst steps – as I looked for my personal place in the world.

Naturally, we fell in love with the bisexual area – how may you maybe not?! – and I place many stress on my self to belong to it.


ix decades later on, I met Amelia at a bi-centred crafting occasion. They certainly were cool, cute and sort – and happily bisexual.

Because they remember: “once we found, you recognized as bi and that I recognized as a lady, which looks ridiculous now! We turned into real buddies and I had no concept how hard i might fall for you.”

On that day, Amelia and that I made bi and pan themed Hama Bead ornaments which can be nevertheless rattling around when you look at the bottom of my backpack (You will find really serious executive function issues). We after that started happening group outings with fellow queers, phoning our selves The Queer Sparkly Pals.

Bisexual pleasure turned into element of all of our personal beginning tale and our record. Amelia and I would not have met whether it were not for this modest little Midsumma crafternoon, due to the bi-focused radio show

Triple Bi Pass


Of most things, this probably managed to make it the most difficult to go out of bisexuality behind. I was split between our identity and my personal community associations.

But eventually, i really couldn’t deny it: I was (and am) a lesbian.


rom having slept with guys – albeit a mere a small number of occasions – I’ve completed the investigation to confidently say it is not for me personally.

Misogyny caught me personally for the belief that possibly I am not designed to appreciate gender, or that my personal incapacity to obtain any enjoyment from it ended up being my personal drawback (excuse the cummy pun!). This sex felt abnormal and painful, and I also nonetheless enjoy impotence because these unpleasant encounters – and because of a healthy and balanced rush of traumatization.

I never had a proper union with one, I never ever liked their own intimate pursuit of me personally, and that I’ve never sensed at home with all of them.

In comparison, Amelia provides the convenience of enriching relationships with guys, as well as their interest to males feels exactly the same using their attraction to people of some other sexes. Amelia is still attractively bisexual.

“whenever matchmaking males in high-school, some relationships believed incorrect, although some felt inexplicably correct,” my personal hunky honey explains. “today once I think about being keen on guys, i do believe about running my hands over a guy’s beard and scratching their chin area. If that isn’t really destination, I don’t know understanding!”


can not joyfully see an intimate or intimate existence with men, but my personal lesbianism is foremost about me personally and exactly who I


keen on, perhaps not my decreased heterosexual destination.

My lesbianism is much more than an absence of men, or something like that I’m identified become ‘missing’. Additionally it is – demonstrably – more than an exclusive interest to females.

With Amelia, personally i think nurtured inside my human anatomy, head and spirit. Nothing is missing; this really love is actually complete and total.


hen I at some point recognized my lesbianism, we stressed that I would betrayed my personal bonds using bisexual area. But it addittionally felt



The definition of bisexuality differs from individual to individual, but i could state beyond doubt what it is perhaps not.

Bisexuality just isn’t an anxious quote to keep the heteronormative possibilities open, even though they generate you miserable. It isn’t begrudgingly trying to withstand men’s room advances, questioning the reason why it doesn’t feel good. Bisexuality just isn’t forced; its freeing.

On expression, my detection with bisexuality was never ever a genuine match.

I labeled as myself personally bisexual based on having slept with multiple genders – despite the fact that past intimate behaviours you should not fundamentally mean your sex. Anyone can have bi-curious dalliances to explore their particular sexuality; from mine, i recently learnt that I was simple ol’ homosexual.

From left to ideal: Amelia, Big Bertha, Alex.


‘ve untangled lots of

compulsory heterosexuality

throughout this quest. I happened to be at first unwilling to forget about the “bisexual” label, which had become a trusty old pal, a comfort object like one of my many

For a while, I felt that bisexuality and pansexuality happened to be the ‘best’ or ‘most inclusive’ sexualities getting, which had been undoubtedly located in internalised homophobia and an aspire to appear available and nonjudgemental.

But there’s absolutely nothing judgemental about lesbian appeal, or having interest in a fashion that’s affected by gender.

A ‘hearts perhaps not areas’ mindset – which can be the thing I adopted in my own young people – is actually a lot more judgemental inside the implication that gay and lesbian orientations depend on ‘parts’, or that other people do not care just as about minds too.

I hardly ever encounter actual attraction, when I do, it isn’t really about genitals, because, definitely, another person’s genitals don’t notify their own sex! Gender and self-expression are facets inside my destination, therefore took me a long time to accept that the does not generate me personally closed-minded. It just makes me personally gay.



Work in Progress,

the protagonist Abby phone calls by herself a “queer dyke”. This resonates with me – depicting a lesbian with room for different kinds of queer interactions beyond only ladies enjoying ladies, beyond cis-normativity.

I love the word “dyke”, but I’m additionally wanting to definitely say “lesbian” – a tag it doesn’t get adequate love or pleasure. Instead, it becomes bogged straight down by discussion, or made use of as a device of gatekeeping and transmisogyny. This will make it much more important to make use of “lesbian” in good, inclusive contexts.

The “gay” label isn’t treated as limiting and antiquated, therefore neither if the “lesbian” mark.


oving Amelia does not create myself less of a lesbian, nor does it make sure they are much less non-binary. Perhaps it really implies we are both renegades! Love by itself transcends binaries – unless it really is a love between robots sexting in digital rule.

Love isn’t skilled in distinct black-and-white groups, however in full colour – our very own the majority of magically real person moments.

“My sex identity is robust and is alson’t invalidated by your sex,” says my huggy bear. “My personal gender is actually a personal, inner space of self-understanding it doesn’t match the tradition and goes misunderstood by a lot of people.”


improvement in my tag does not reflect on anyone except that myself.

Its regrettable it must be said, but

stories like my own

you should not indicate that bisexuality is a stage, a stepping-stone to becoming homosexual, or no matter what naysayers are naysayin’.

We’ll constantly fight the legitimacy and superiority of my bisexual kin.

We’re all in this collectively

, once we have been because the beginning of the queer rights movement.

Of the exact same token, we cannot commemorate lesbianism without uplifting trans and non-binary lesbians, which comprise a giant – and great – portion of the lesbian community, plus Basic countries lesbians and lesbians of colour, butch lesbians, lesbians with disabilities (shoutout to my personal other autistic lesbians!), and many more.


want you to reclaim lesbianism from the clammy arms of TERFs.

As my personal trans heartthrob tells me: “TERFs lack space for the difficulties and subtleties of an individual. TERF ideology is based on anxiety, pain therefore the desire to ‘other’. And I also don’t have any fascination with identifying me by other’s pain.”

Being a lesbian is not about vaginas, womanliness, ‘gold performers’ or exclusion.

My lesbianism is comprehensive; it remembers sex range around it honors ladies; it remembers different expressions of sapphic love and interest; it celebrates camaraderie and a discussed history with queer folks of all genders. It remembers unique queerness.


y appeal to Amelia is queer, as theirs would be to me: you’ll find sapphic factors to our commitment, there was a playful stability of masculine, female, androgynous and pure chaotic powers.

Our really love happens to intersect completely, no matter what the details your men and women and sexualities.

“Labels establish with time and protection,” my spectacular partner and co-pet-parent reflects. “Non-binary is the better descriptor for me, and lesbian is the best descriptor for you. Where those tags are relatively incongruous is where all of our challenging, loving relationship life.

“producing space for every areas of each other is the work of adoring some body. I’m sure you like myself, and that’s everything I value.”


utside your house, our company is recognised incorrectly as a lesbian pair. While this doesn’t reflect the complexities of our own identities, it can form how we go through the world.

By ourselves, the audience is merely two people crazy, doing DIY jobs (Amelia), making collages out of outdated porno mags (Alex) and

imitating ridiculous sounds for the pets (both).

We browse the challenges to be a visibly queer couple in the field, so we honour the nuances of your exclusive identities, even though these are typicallyn’t affirmed by community most importantly – when a waiter calls united states “ladies”, when my personal outreach individual feels “partner” equals “boyfriend”, if not if the queer community thinks “lesbian” implies “women just”.

My personal lover says it well: “We are more than the sum of our tags. In regards as a result of the straightforward acts of warm and being loved, as much as possible find it, eliminate it and supply it, subsequently whom cares just what anyone else phone calls us?”

Alex Creece is an author, poet, collage singer and average kook residing on Wadawurrung secure. Alex works as the on line Editor for Archer mag together with Production Editor for Cordite Poetry Review. She is also throughout the editorial committee for Sunder diary.

Alex ended up being given a Write-ability Fellowship in 2019 and a Wheeler Centre Hot table Fellowship in 2020. An example of Alex’s work was extremely Commended inside the 2019 After that Chapter design, and she was shortlisted when it comes down to 2021 Kat Muscat Fellowship. In 2022, Alex had been shortlisted for inaugural delivered authors Award therefore the Lord Mayor’s Creative Writing Award.

Amelia Newman (they/them) is an author, theater maker and performer born in Narrm/Melboune. Amelia did thoroughly with Riot Stage Youth Theatre and they have had their particular work offered at Los Angeles Mama Theatre, Melbourne Fringe Festival, Northcote Town Hall, Arts residence and Siteworks.

Amelia’s debut play ‘Younger and More compact’ is actually published with Australian performs modify and also been produced by schools nationwide. Amelia is excited about LGBTIQ+ stories and figures. Their unique work has an enthusiastic concentrate on psychological state representation and destigmatisation. They have been located in Djilang/Geelong and work across Narrm/Melbourne.